plau·si·ble
adjective
1.
having an appearance of truth or reason; seemingly worthy of approvalor acceptance; credible; believable: a plausible excuse; a plausible plot.
2.
well-spoken and apparently, but often deceptively, worthy of confidenceor trust: a plausible commentator.
That is the dictionary's definition!
I Couldn't get closer than that if I tried to explain it myself! I certainly could give you a great number of examples from the last few years to define that word!
I have decided it is what it is. Someone wants to hand me 'plausible' reasons for this or that... I say Okay, you could be right. What I don't say is .. Bullshit, and we both know it!
I myself have given oh so many 'plausible' answers as well. I do not justify any of them. I have one reason for doing so. It's self protection. Not lies and deceit as charged.
I do NOT trust that my mistakes won't be held against me, when they are just everyday ordinary mistakes. Big ones or small ones. Just mistakes. Doing what I think is best in that moment and finding out I was wrong.
I will NOT have my mistakes made into something to be gossiped about! I will NOT share my mistakes to be ridiculed and beat into the ground as another example of why I am a failure. Or to show 'what's wrong with me' ...
I am a failure at so many things. So what? I can easily accept that. I am also so very successful at a many number of things. I think the balance has been pretty even in the years I have lived.
It's time for a change. I am not interested in excepting the plausible anymore and just letting it go. I have no interest in even hearing the plausible anymore.
It turns my stomach every time I just sit and 'take it' for truth. I find I am not disappointed in hearing what could be the truth. I am disappointed that I accept it. I am disappointed in ME! My reaction. My lack of courage to call bullshit.
I have changed in the last few years. I have just taken on and before this week believed this change to be what it was told to me to "be normal".
Plausible? Yes...
Truth? No...
I have been crying ALOT! It's not the "why cry" but this is the: OMFG I get it now cry! It's a cry that is turning out to so releasing and freeing. It's a cry that each tear is a letting go and each tear that leaves my body is a piece of the past I am letting go of. If that makes any sense.. I get it and that is what matters!
Oh, yeah, back to Plausible.. bite me.. I see it for what it is. No more bullshit.
And that is more than Plausible, it's the Truth!
Fact!
